The Sky

Recently I chose to end a relationship with a divine counterpart, a perfectly mirrored emanation of wholeness. My best friend.

Near or far we did the universal dance as an Unspeakable unit of togetherness.

The moments leading up to what I’m calling the “crescendo effect” felt like every bone in my body was breaking; everything I knew to be true cracked; dust appeared from clearly marked, yet unexplored places in my mind, and the effects of witnessing this first looked like:

I’m a cryer, so there were hours of melodic sobbing to sad songs, swollen eyelids, headache, snotty face and t-shirt, a dramatic “love you forever” note, ridding my space of memorabilia…

~Side bar to 12/31/22 - I see a lady post online about setting a theme for the year as opposed to a resolution: in that instant I chose SPEAKING WITH INTEGRITY.

Since then, I’ve mentioned this agreement with myself to a couple of people; one conversation with a well-known, respected, and humble member of the local conscious and healing community + a spiritual mentor of mine made it clear how I had been doing that with gloves on. They’re off, now.🥊~

So, fast forward a few weeks where I’m breaking up with my bestie? What? One minute I’m ordering a taco salad of a lifetime, the next I’m amidst the “crescendo effect” wondering “How?”

Well, I hadn’t considered that far.

A day without them? Sure, I’d thought about when one of us leaves this earth plane, but before that? No way.

Real quick let’s address part of why I’m writing this: choices.

After an astonishingly moving insight relating to food ✨choices✨ (of all things) and feelings, I began to apply the concept and lesson in every corner of my mind and life it could reach.

What actions I initiate and why has and continues to (thank the heavens) reveal deep spiritual grounding and ascension on my path.

So, I chose this. And all of those “no way’s” quickly became YES. YEP. OH YEAH. “There’s no turning back,” as his little one said once, and the old adage, “You can’t step in the same river twice” come to mind. In self-less action, choice, I AM free.

I allow myself to ask if this is of the Highest and the Best for me, or if my actions are sabotaging, by sacrificing my gifts like a martyr.

All BS aside, including the excuses my ego created to avoid this standing ovation of a step forward, initiating a conversation that exposed false structure - fallible stability - toxic “hauxdom” -

based on an agreement I chose to honor has shaped, with a spiritual chisel and rasp, a masterpiece that grants me the keys to MASTER PEACE.

I respect and value the connection and lessons that came through this person. We gave part of our lives, time, effort, and energy for one another to grow - in our own way and in different directions.

We grew apart, together.

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Some reading this may already know how much I love esoteric (soul’s purpose) astrology - and here I’ll say the placement of mars in libra at my ascendant is the mark of the peaceful warrior, the diplomat. Mastering peace is a non-action action. The binary fascinates me. Recognizing this is part of my work in this life, noticing my character and acting with integrity, no matter how challenging it may appear. I save fighting for the gym now, and words for truth. 🥊🤍

Please accept this extremely condensed version of my choice to separate from my best friend as a peace offering; there are many people experiencing great loss and despair at this time. With that, I offer universal Love and Grace.

Thank you for reading &

Until next time,

Angela